Another Monday Morning

So Kevin is supposed to have gotten a job like in November so the AG's office will quit harassing him for not paying his child support, which I have been paying since his child support is cheaper than day care for the little kids. But between us still being broke and his week or bi weekly relapses on the meth he still hasn't gone and found one. Granted it is a little harder for him to find a job because of his criminal background but I believe that if he really tried to get one he could. So this morning when I got up the first time from Matty crying and crying, he tells me, "so you didn't budget any money for gas or what?".. I want to scream and yell and throw shit at him. Last monday resulted in one slashed tire, one broken cell phone and another trip to get more green.. A total for cost for that was $90. Not to mention that he's made like 3 trips here and there to smoke and to do stuff for his mother which he could have not made and had the gas to go job hunting today. I could have figured out a way to get him some gas had we talked about it before he left, but instead he leaves me a note that says, "i'm going to find a job, i'll call you if I run out of gas". Perfect!! Glad he went to try and get a job but the lack of communication is so freaking irritating I can't stand it. Joseph was awake when I got up and just hanging out in the living room, would have been nice to know that I'm the only parent here so I can be aware that I have to take care of stuff. I guess I should write some kind of background sometime. Maybe not.  He deleted his blog because he didn't want to put it all out on the internet. Freaking stupid